I Have Severe OCD | The Secret Life of Lele Pons

It’s no secret Lele Pons is one of the most successful social media icons with over 40 million followers and considered an internet trailblazer for her contributions to various platforms. Known for her unfiltered videos, candid humor and crazy stunts, Lele’s storytelling arch takes a more serious tone as she opens up to the world with her deepest secret. Through access to private moments, emotional interviews and never seen before footage, Lele reveals her life long struggle with OCD among other mental health conditions and doesn’t shy away from the most intimate details of her battle.
If you or someone you know needs help, find resources in your area from the International OCD Foundation: iocdf.org/?s=+&post_type%5B%5D=iocdf_provider&post_type%5B%5D=iocdf_clinic&post_type%5B%5D=iocdf_support_group&post_type%5B%5D=iocdf_program&search-type=provider
Produced by: Shots Studios
Directed by: Alicia Zubikowski


  1. Lele Pons

    Lele Ponsپیش 5 روز

    Thank you everyone for supporting me. I hope you enjoy this docu-series and learn about OCD, Tourettes, and other things. LIKE the video if you watch it! I'll see you next Tuesday for episode 2 :)

  2. Laura Schmidt

    Laura Schmidtپیش 2 روز

    I am your biges fan lele!

  3. Eric

    Ericپیش 5 روز

    I love you lele pons

  4. Jady Clovis

    Jady Clovisپیش 5 روز

    I love u Lele

  5. Sandra Apun

    Sandra Apunپیش 5 روز

    I loveee youuuu leleeee❤️❤️❤️❤️

  6. Chibi Alpaca

    Chibi Alpacaپیش 5 روز

    Love this video lele

  7. Mochi Bubblie Bear

    Mochi Bubblie Bearپیش 6 ساعت

    Lele stay strong we love you boo❤️❤️❤️

  8. Aysia Carty

    Aysia Cartyپیش 6 ساعت

    Ur unique lele iam a huge fan

  9. David Woodward

    David Woodwardپیش 6 ساعت

    I think you are very beautiful inside and out and I hope you celebrate all you have accomplished. Thank you for sharing your story.

  10. Shawna cavin

    Shawna cavinپیش 6 ساعت

    I am praying for you 🙏 because I've been through the same thing. It's not fun at all.

  11. Bel G.

    Bel G.پیش 6 ساعت

    Lele, you’re beautiful, brave, smart, funny and REAL!!! Real people are hard to find in this world. Don’t change🌻💛

  12. Cassidy Campbell

    Cassidy Campbellپیش 6 ساعت

    Thank you for sharing this and advocating for mental illness and ocd. I thought you were beautiful before but even more so now

  13. Mochi Bubblie Bear

    Mochi Bubblie Bearپیش 6 ساعت

    I- never knew lele had ocd I’m so sorry lele

  14. Avocado Emmy

    Avocado Emmyپیش 6 ساعت

    this sounds alot like something i do im lowkey scared now

  15. Maisha Khan

    Maisha Khanپیش 6 ساعت

    Seeing your tears I felt so bad lele.....I really love u.... And it hurts knowing u like that... Because all I known that u was so cheerful

  16. Sierra Harding

    Sierra Hardingپیش 6 ساعت

    I have ocd to!!

  17. Caiden Clark

    Caiden Clarkپیش 6 ساعت

    Lele pons you are the best one I ever seen let people the f***** up do the best of the best and keep on making shows please for me that's my world

  18. Taylor unicorn

    Taylor unicornپیش 7 ساعت

    It is ok

  19. Human Gotcha life fnaf

    Human Gotcha life fnafپیش 7 ساعت

    You and Hannah stocking are my favorite IRgosrs

  20. The Inspirational G.A.P

    The Inspirational G.A.Pپیش 7 ساعت

    is bad humor another???

  21. Thiago Trigo

    Thiago Trigoپیش 7 ساعت

    Jesus loves you and He wants to set you free. He can do it and is willing to. Psalm 1<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="183">03:3</a> “He who forgives all our sins and heals all our diseases”. Just be open and believe with your heart and ask Him and He will do it! Bless you, love you!

  22. Sutisan

    Sutisanپیش 7 ساعت

    Keep your negative energy away if you don’t have nothing nice to say don’t say it she’s human too and as humans we’re supposed to help each other not bring each other down may we be glad that she’s here her very existence is a blessing

  23. Penny Rose

    Penny Roseپیش 7 ساعت

    I know you from your videos and you have a great talent, I know nothing really about OCD, I hope you find something that works for you. I wish you only the best honey, stay strong. 💟✝️☮️ Penny

  24. B Souza

    B Souzaپیش 7 ساعت

    I have severe anxiety/depression and I am so very very sorry that you have OCD. I understand suffering and my heart ❤️ breaks for you. May God bless you and give you relief. This is what I pray for every day. Love you Lele and hope you find peace. Never give up!


    MOSSY TONICپیش 7 ساعت

    I wonder if there's a nutritional deficiency because the under eyes look yellow

  26. Gabrelle Goldsmith

    Gabrelle Goldsmithپیش 7 ساعت

    wow Lele I'm so sorry you're going through this

  27. Marcos Pacheco

    Marcos Pachecoپیش 7 ساعت

    You have my prayer you can get through this :)

  28. Hello Lovely

    Hello Lovelyپیش 7 ساعت

    I had it similar but not as bad..and God healed me. He is the ultimate healer! doctors & medications can only do so much. Seek God & pastors and churches Lele Pons he can heal you!!

  29. Alaa Arab

    Alaa Arabپیش 7 ساعت

    You are so brave. I feel very bad for you because you have to deal with OCD and depression. I hope you get better soon.

  30. Freduardo Tayo

    Freduardo Tayoپیش 7 ساعت

    I have severe anxiety. I feel her pain. Stay strong.

  31. Boop

    Boopپیش 7 ساعت

    I feel so awful for her. Mental illnesses don’t just disappear when you’re rich/famous. Her struggles are real, and it’s so awful how she’s been treated by the internet. Just because someone’s humor is different than yours, it does NOT give you the right to mercilessly bully them.

  32. Mr. Jackson

    Mr. Jacksonپیش 7 ساعت

    Things are more of a secret if you don't post them on youtube

  33. Lori Hudson

    Lori Hudsonپیش 7 ساعت

    I want you to know I completely understand because I have it too. You can get better. I did! If you would like to talk to me please let me know. I would like to be there for you❤

  34. Arie Goston

    Arie Gostonپیش 7 ساعت

    We love u lele

  35. Arie Goston

    Arie Gostonپیش 7 ساعت

    😥😥😥um so srry I hope u get through everything

  36. Arie Goston

    Arie Gostonپیش 7 ساعت

    Lele is a natural and she is my favorite I just feel bad for this if I was in her shoes I would do the same

  37. Jayelle Tandy

    Jayelle Tandyپیش 7 ساعت

    I feel so bad for her like this is so deep I not joking I crying this is so sad... 😖

  38. German Leo Gerling

    German Leo Gerlingپیش 7 ساعت

    No se quien es, ni que tiene. Yo le doy igual, está re linda

  39. Hermila Cantu

    Hermila Cantuپیش 7 ساعت

    Lele I’m so sorry for you I wish I was there for you to help you to make you happy to make you like to open your doors your stuff and you don’t want to touch it like I can do it I just wish I was there for you and and I heard it hurts I love you Lele

  40. Ráfi Solomon

    Ráfi Solomonپیش 7 ساعت

    <a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="1250">20:50</a>

  41. vanessa wright

    vanessa wrightپیش 7 ساعت

    whoever dislike this have no heart

  42. Izzy

    Izzyپیش 7 ساعت

    I’ve been in therapy for about 4 years now and I’m finally getting ocd under control now I still have to do some rituals but it’s definitely better. Thank you for talking about this and bring awareness ocd is more than cleaning

  43. Daniel Foxworthy

    Daniel Foxworthyپیش 7 ساعت

    Stay strong. Please be safe.

  44. Folsch29

    Folsch29پیش 7 ساعت

    I am having more confidence in my self cause I have OCD

  45. Jaylon Boyd

    Jaylon Boydپیش 7 ساعت

    If you don’t like lele Pons fight me bout it

  46. Fandom Love

    Fandom Loveپیش 7 ساعت

    You know I never understood what OCD ment. And I didn't really like lele sometimes and then sometimes I thought she was cute and funny. What I'm trying to say is I appreciate this vid and her telling her story. And it gives me a new perspective on her side. And you have to admit even if you don't like someone you have time admit when they are strong in their vulnerable moments and open up. I totally respect her for this and everyone else who has to go through anything like this, and to anyone who is sharing their story, thank you.💙

  47. BetH -

    BetH -پیش 7 ساعت

    I can relate to you... I also have OCD and I have to do everything at least 4 times, 2 is a bad number for me. Technically I haven't been diagnosed so I'm deciding whether I say I have it or not... anyway I don't know what else I have but whenever I'm focused on a certain sound it starts to yell at me so yeah- Edit: I dont think I need therapy because I don't have it as bad as her so-

  48. Abby N

    Abby Nپیش 7 ساعت

    I had ocd as a kid, I teared up at the video of her with her therapist omg 😭. I feel for people that struggle with this

  49. Folsch29

    Folsch29پیش 7 ساعت

    I feel so bad 4 u and it is so funny

  50. Malcolm allen Mercado

    Malcolm allen Mercadoپیش 7 ساعت

    I'm crying for you plz be okay

  51. Holly rife

    Holly rifeپیش 7 ساعت

    Girly u just got yourself a new subscriber💛

  52. Holly rife

    Holly rifeپیش 7 ساعت

    I feel like we all just needed to see something like this. we would just mindlessly watch this super fun girl, not even knowing what she was going through. I respect her so much more. She is so strong and lele i know you can fight it.

  53. Maricel Yeates

    Maricel Yeatesپیش 7 ساعت

    Cuando vi tu historia, vi la mía porque desde chica que tuve toc y los sigo teniendo. Entiendo cómo te sentías porque siento lo mismo. Me alegra que pudiste y sigas saliendo de eso porque convivir con toc te desgasta la cabeza y eso me pasa. Te conocí hoy por primera vez y sos una gran mujer. Sigue adelante Lele!!!

  54. HANNAH

    HANNAHپیش 7 ساعت

    Omg lele I'm sorry that u have to go through all of this and I really respect u even more than before bcs u had enough strength to tell ur story 😢😢😢💔 plz be strong girl u can survive

  55. Paige Elliott

    Paige Elliottپیش 7 ساعت

    I have ice and I'm 12 and my mom does not get it I have to clean every day I hat it even when I'm sick and I have to make stuff even and my paper has to be neat if I itch left are I have to itch my right

  56. alicia moreno

    alicia morenoپیش 7 ساعت

    I am a big fan of lele and I would never bully her

  57. Nishka Prasad

    Nishka Prasadپیش 7 ساعت

    Lele pons you are so entertaining and funny 😂 keep it up you are amazing ♥❤💕👍😊😎😎😎😎😎

  58. Guadalupe Rodriguez Zahn

    Guadalupe Rodriguez Zahnپیش 7 ساعت

    Porque ponen dislikes a Lele, lo que ella habla es algo muy importante, para ella. Entiendanla

  59. Rjo Playz

    Rjo Playzپیش 7 ساعت

    I have ocd too. I am glad i am not alone

  60. Harry Wolf

    Harry Wolfپیش 7 ساعت

    This is the first time I think I've related to someone about something like this. I have this thing where I fear certain objects, actions, foods, and so on because I feel like they are bad luck and they affect the future positively or negatively. I always just thought I was crazy so I Fr have never told anyone, but now it makes sense. It's bad enough for me to the point where It will look like an addiction to an outsider, but addiction to something they don't understand, but it eases as life goes up. Now it makes a lot more sense.

  61. Kiera Michelle Brennan

    Kiera Michelle Brennanپیش 7 ساعت

    Thank you for bravely sharing your story as I am someone who struggles with OCD and ADHD as well and this video empowered me to share more of my story! Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

  62. Thatgirl Shey

    Thatgirl Sheyپیش 8 ساعت

    It’s really hard how I’ve been laughing to all her videos like she’s funny but it’s painful how she hold in for a decade it hurt really much. I will love you for life Lele thank you I still watch and support ur video love you 😘.

  63. Sherman Williams

    Sherman Williamsپیش 8 ساعت

    Lele I want to say that u are very special and no matter what anyone says u are important to millions of people we love just the way u are

  64. iilovehearts Girl

    iilovehearts Girlپیش 8 ساعت

    Leledon’t listen to others you will be ok I love you❤️🥺

  65. XodusOnan

    XodusOnanپیش 8 ساعت


  66. rosi1al

    rosi1alپیش 8 ساعت

    I am so sorry Lele.. 😭😭😭😭😭😭💕💕💕💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

  67. Mariela Rodriguez Lill

    Mariela Rodriguez Lillپیش 8 ساعت

    Lele doyou

  68. Mariela Rodriguez Lill

    Mariela Rodriguez Lillپیش 8 ساعت

    Lele doyou speak in english

  69. Joe Dan

    Joe Danپیش 8 ساعت

    damn, ion remember asking

  70. bonek350

    bonek350پیش 8 ساعت

    I think I've heard every one of my coworkers say they have OCD. If only they really knew what OCD really is. Look at what this poor lady has to deal with.

  71. I AM JEM

    I AM JEMپیش 8 ساعت

    Lele Pons please don't let negative comments gets you down, cause in life you're always gonna have good and bad opinions and there are many heartless people in this world. Just continue to be a great and a funny person. And always remember in everything that you do, someone might not like it. Turn your negative comments into a positive motivational energy it works all the time.

  72. Andres Figueroa Palos

    Andres Figueroa Palosپیش 8 ساعت


  73. Itz -Lil_Pup-

    Itz -Lil_Pup-پیش 8 ساعت

    It's ok, just keep praying and have faith

  74. V1Gibby

    V1Gibbyپیش 8 ساعت

    Read “The Power of Now”

  75. Random얀얀

    Random얀얀پیش 8 ساعت

    Do your thing✨ Don’t let the haters get you..It really Hurts to see You suffer like this😭We love You so much your vines and love trough out the world💖

  76. Salvon TV

    Salvon TVپیش 8 ساعت

    Imagine how perfect everything would be if everyone had OCD?

  77. keke vlogs

    keke vlogsپیش 8 ساعت

    Lele I am 12 years old and I have looked up to you since I was 7 and I still look up to u like when I was having a bad day u made me happy . You r great in every way you try to be the best u can and that is what I love about you ❤️❤️❤️😁😁😁

  78. It’s Alejandra E.

    It’s Alejandra E.پیش 8 ساعت

    God can heal you from that Lele. There is nothing else you need but him. There’s is a void in you that only him the king 👑 of kings can only fill and his name is Jesus. The one that died on that cross for me and you and everyone reading this.

  79. Alyssa

    Alyssaپیش 7 ساعت

    It’s Alejandra E. Sorry to break it to u but god doesn’t magically “heal” mental disorders... medicine and therapy does, and even then it only helps to a certain extent...

  80. It’s Alejandra E.

    It’s Alejandra E.پیش 8 ساعت

    Seek him and you will find him.

  81. C CM

    C CMپیش 8 ساعت

    As an artist, I get it, you want what you do to be the best of its kind. But then you eventually realize, meh, it is what it is but I myself am great on my own independent of my talent. Hope you can find the good side of being independent from the talent and from the art. Just enjoy being . :) It took me many years to find that appreciation of enjoyment away from the identity, but it exists, and it's pretty darn nice I can say

  82. Louis Ké

    Louis Kéپیش 8 ساعت


  83. Sharon Rodgers

    Sharon Rodgersپیش 8 ساعت

    Whos finna get shot

  84. Sharon Rodgers

    Sharon Rodgersپیش 8 ساعت

    U are inspiring strong funny

  85. Radio Demon

    Radio Demonپیش 8 ساعت

    3 min in i already subscribed even with all this u look like a really awesome person i may never heard of you but i can already tell u look and are a wonderful person and i am glad that you have people who support you through it all

  86. Ameerah Steele

    Ameerah Steeleپیش 8 ساعت

    Lele I’m here for you whenever I’m down you make me so happy and u love how your so strong!💜💜 hang in there💜

  87. Mea Redcay

    Mea Redcayپیش 8 ساعت

    Dear Lele, I pray for you. I really really hope that you are ok. I have no idea how you are feel but i hope that you are getting the care for your OCD.